Jill Victoria

I have to say, I have had an excellent 26 years of life!

Despite the hardships and trials, I’ve experienced a fabulous life. This past year of my life was the most life changing ever, for obvious reasons. It’s hard to believe that David and I got engaged on my 25th birthday and by my 26th we are husband and wife.

I had a great birthday! Though nothing could top an engagement ring as a birthday present, my gift this year came close. I received a Kindle from my dear husband… and myself! I love it and as an avid reader and gadget girl, this was the best of both worlds!

For my birthday David made me a strawberry cheesecake and a Key Lime pie! Both were very delicious! I visited my grandfather, who is now in a nursing home here in Fayetteville. He is at one of the best places around, and my new family full of doctors are close by and operating the facility. I know he’s in good hands there.

I went with David, brother (in-law) John, Emily, Jonathan, Chrispy and Mandy up to Chow Baby for my birthday dinner. Having eaten there on New Year’s Eve, I knew this was the best place for everyone attending my party. We all had a great time together. Good friends, good food, good conversation and lots of laughter!

I really am blessed to have such a wonderful family and group of friends. I feel very loved and appreciated!

Today David and I went to lunch with my parents and GranMar at Olive Garden as a belated birthday meal. David and I then went shopping so I could spend the birthday money burning a hole in my pocket.

We ended the afternoon with a new mattress! I have never been more excited about going to bed before in my life!

Overall, this has been an excellent birthday! Another one for the memory books…. with more to come!

I feel bad that I don’t update my blog more. I miss it a lot. Time just seems to have been taken away from me with the new job and the wedding planning. Even now I feel exhausted, but I wanted to write something up!

There has been a bit of a change for mine and David’s future. We were supposed to be living at the lake house on Jackson Lake after the wedding, but that has been scrapped. David and I will now be living at the house he lives in now in Fayetteville. It’s a bigger house with a lot more room to spread out and to grow. While at first the change was a big nuisance since everything we had registered for had been done so with a overall empty house in mind. Now we will just be emptying an already full house to make it a home for ourselves.

Either way, we are blessed to have a place to live. Especially a house as big as the one we will be living in.

I had a long blog to post up on July 4th, explaining why the holiday is so much more than people seem to remember. I also wanted to educate people on some things they may not have known. I may post it up still.

Independence Day weekend was fun. Friday everyone had off from work, so David and I went with his parents, brother John and his girlfriend Yoly and Spencer and Krista to the house on Jackson Lake. We had ribs and sandwiches for lunch, then spent some time on the pontoon boat out on the water. David, Krista, Spencer and I went swimming for a few hours in the lake and after Dr. Frank, John, Yoly and Ms. Deb were through with the boat, they joined us for a while. We grilled hot dogs and hamburgers for dinner and David made a strawberry angelfood cake for dessert. It was great!

On the fourth, David and I went up to celebrate Baby Gabe’s first birthday! It’s still hard to believe that he has been here a year. It seems a lot longer and a lot shorter at the same time.

Sunday we were lazy for the most part. After a go-go-go couple of days, the break was nice.

This coming Friday is the start of Campmeeting at Shingleroof Campground. This will be my 26th year there out of the 25 I have been alive. How does that work, you ask? I’m sure that you can figure it out. My mom was pregnant with me when she went to Campmeeting. My aunt Donna says that I can count that as a year.

My aunt Ellen, her daughter (my cousin) Rachel (one of my bridesmaids) and her seven children: Lucie (my flower girl), Jack, Joey, JJ, Lillie, Jacob and Jonathan, are coming for Campmeeting this year. They will also be bringing my cousin Nate’s (Ellen’s son) girlfriend Chandra. I’m looking forward to meeting her as well as Jacob and Jonathan. They’re the babies. Jonathan was born in May of this year, so I’ll have a newborn to snuggle!

Friday before the offical start of Campmeeting, I’m going to go dress shopping with Rachel and Lucie so they can find their dresses for the wedding. It’s going to be a really fun week at Campmeeting. I’ll have to write up a blog specifically explaining Campmeeting. It’s so many things in one: spiritual revival, family reunion, feasting and a lot of fun!

David and I had dinner at Bacci’s (the location for the rehearsal dinner) with my parents this past Friday night. It was fun for the most part. My dad had a headache, so he wasn’t much for conversation.

I’m so lucky to have found a guy who my parents like and gets along with. I’m also lucky to get along with my future in-laws and that they like and get along with me too. It’s everything I had always prayed for growing up when I talked to God about my future husband and married life.

I paid my college tuition for the first semester Friday. It was rather scary and exhilarating at the same time. I’ll be starting class the Monday after Campmeeting ends. Here comes my future career! I’m still nervous about classes and making sure I do well. I hate to be a failure. Hard work gets yo

I really need to go to bed. Prehaps I’ll find more time in my hectic schedule to update again before too long.

It’s my last day of dog sitting for Kris. I feel like after tonight I can try and regain somewhat of a normal life again.

A week ago today life got really complicated for a short time. It was a holiday weekend, Pop died and then dog sitting all added up to my life feeling way out of the norm. At least I got to spend most of the time with David, which was nice.

I can’t believe it’s June! Time is flying by so quickly and every time I realize how close the wedding is now, I semi freak and get excited at the same time. Four months. Just four very short months until I’m Mrs. David Cole. That seems so far and so very close at the same time. Why do I feel like it won’t happen? Too good to be true?

David and I went and picked out wedding bands yesterday at the Shane Company. We figured since we’re up here in Gwinette at the closest Shane Co to us now, it would be a waste to not go ahead and pick out what we want. David picked out this titanium ring and I chose this simple, 14k white gold one. I like how mine is plain, so that is blends in perfectly with my engagement ring and doesn’t take away from the beauty of the solitare diamond. It’s just my own taste, but I prefer the simple look when it comes to wedding rings. Too much bling makes you look like you’re desperate to prove to everyone that you’re really in love… or that you have way too much money to spend.

There is still a lot to do for the wedding. I haven’t bought my dress yet, and that is a rather important thing top have. I’ve had three people offer to give me bridal showers, which is very nice. No set dates yet, but I’m sure that they will be set soon.

This Friday I have my second meeting with my wedding planner at the Hazelhurst House. We get to discuss flowers… yay. I also have to tell her that our wedding party is diminished by one since we lost Pop. It was something we all knew would happen before October, but we still didn’t want to not count him as someone who would be there.

My brother, Matthew, will be coming home this month for good. Well, when I say “home”, I mean the USA; Georgia in specific. I’m glad he’ll be back soon, especially with that power crazed North Korean communist dictator, Kim Jung Il getting ready to go psycho over there. Matt will miss his birthday, which is next Monday. My baby brother will be 21. Oh, my God!

I’m applying for a few jobs. Please pray that I get one of them!

Once again, another hectic and busy weekend has come and gone. Whatever happened to my boring, downtime weekends that I so used to enjoy? I miss them.

My brother, Matthew, came home from South Korea for a visit. He arrived on Thursday and surprised my mom by showing up at her work and meeting her as she walked out the door. I knew he was coming and I told my dad when he was too… mainly so my dad would shut up about it!

Friday I took the day off to spend time with my brother, but he went to Savannah instead to see a friend and to get an anthrax shot. He didn’t come back till yesterday morning, so I just did things with David all weekend.

I went to dinner with David and John on Friday night. We had Chinese. Then David and I went and got things we needed from Kroger before we went to his house to hang out.

Saturday David and I went to get two new tires on his car. My mom picked us up from the tire place and we went with her to Hun Il Kwan for some Korean food, since that’s what my mom wanted for her birthday. On the way back to McDonough, we hit a piece of metal in the road and it punctured my mom’s rear passanger side tire. Two guys who also hit the same piece of metal pulled over with us. Both of their cars were fine, so they offered to change my mom’s tire for her. It was a scary place to be to change a tire, right on the side of I-675 with cars whizzing past you at high speeds.

After we got back on the road, David and I went and got his car and then off to Best Buy for me to use my gift cards left over from my birthday to buy Twilight, so thanks to Emily and Jonathan for my DVD! We left there and David went into Sam’s Club to get stuff to sell in his little concession stand at work while I watched the movie on his DVD player on the dashboard.

We were meeting my parents at a restaurant down in High Falls called Falls View Restaurant for dinner later, so we went ahead and drove down there. We watched the water tumbling over the dam while we waited for my parents. It was a good meal when we all sat down to eat.

Sunday was another celebration for my mom’s birthday. My grandmother cooked a fabulous lunch for my mom and we (my mom, dad, brother, David and I) ate at my grandparent’s house after church. David and I then had to head to his grandparent’s house for his grandmother’s birthday celebration. I didn’t eat again, but David did. It was good to sit and relax and look at old pictures with David and his family for a while.

David took me for a pedicure after we left his grandparent’s. I needed one desperately! I walk around barefoot all the time, so my feet were covered in rough, dry skin. They look and feel much better now. I’m ready for the beach!

Speaking of which, the first weekend in April I’m going down to Fernandina Beach, Florida to David’s parent’s condo. I’ll be going with David, Emily and Laura for four days, which I am so looking forward to! We’ve planned a short day trip to St. Augustine one day and on the way back we’re going to stop in Savannah as well. It should be a really fun time and I’m glad that Emily and Laura can come with us.

So, there is what’s going on in my life now. Sad that the only time I feel like I have any down time is at work.

Current Mood: Playful

Friday, as my last blog already covered, was my 25th birthday. It was a pretty good day overall. I didn’t plan to come to work, but ended up coming anyways. The thought of sitting alone in a house seemed depressing to me. I would much rather sit with fellow office inhabitants than alone.

I went to lunch with my mom at a place on the McDonough Square called PJ’s Cafe. They make really good fried chicken salads there and that’s what I wanted. My mom took forever to get there, but after she did we had a good time. We talked for as long as she could get away with and then we walked back down the street to her work.

I went shopping and got a new top to wear with some birthday money. After that I went to go pick up David from work since his car is still in the shop. Turns out he had a busted radiator hose and a broken thermostat. We went back down to McDonough to my house to see my mom and dad. They gave me my birthday presents, a very pretty teal jacket and a book about Southern weddings.

David and I had to leave really quickly to make it on time to my birthday party with friends at the Chinese and sushi place I like. It was me, David, Kris, baby Gabe, Jonathan, Chrispy, Laura, Key, Amanda, Jeremy, baby Lizzie, John and Yoly. We ate and talked and I opened presents. Kris got me a wallet like her’s, which I absolutely LOVE! John and Yoly got me Ghost Hunters: Season 4, part 1. Jonathan gave me a Best Buy gift card and a card and the gift card was in Spanish. I found that so funny!

After dinner, we got our checks and fortune cookies. I opened mine up and when I tried to snap it in two to eat the cookie, it bent like it was old. I made the comment that I wasn’t going to eat that cookie because it bent like it was rubber. I finally opened it and read the fortunes. There were four of them. I read each one aloud, since that’s what everyone does. The last one I came to was different though. The lettering was bold and larger and said “Will you marry me?”. I look across the table at Kris who says “What?”. I turn the fortune around and I’m only going to assume my face mirrored her’s. David got down on one knee next to me, produced a beautiful ring and asked again, if I would marry him.

Of course, I said YES!

Saturday was basically an all day of telling parents we were engaged. We met up with David’s mom for lunch along with John and Yoly. We wanted to tell both sets of parents at the same time, but it wouldn’t work out that way. Ms. Deb was the first parent to know as Dr. Frank was at a meeting in Atlanta. She was thrilled and thought the ring was beautiful. She’s right, it is!

We all five went by to see Pop (David’s grandfather) because he wasn’t doing so well. He knew who we all were when we got there. He asked me stuff about Henry County… because that’s how he knows me.

While we were there, Dr. Frank arrived so we were able to tell him too. I thought his eyes were going to fall out and his jaw dropped. He nearly choked me when he hugged me.

David and I headed to McDonough to meet my parents for my day late birthday dinner with them at Outback. We went by Books-a-Million first so we could find a wedding planner folder to start using. While we waited on my parents at the restaurant, we filled out some of the question sections in the folder that asked us everything we wanted, from locations to lighting.

When I knew my parents were coming in, we hid the folder and my hand. After they sat down, we talked a bit and then I asked if they wanted to see what David got me for my birthday. Of course, my all knowing mother asked “Is it on your hand?”. Well, yeah… it was. They were both happy for us. My dad cried, even though he’ll never admit it.

So, we ate dinner. I tried lobster for the first time. I liked it. We all talked about some of the things we wanted for the wedding as well as other stuff. After dinner the four of us went by to show my grandparents the ring and then went to my house for cake. My mom makes the best cake ever!

Saturday night we ended up having to call 911 for Pop. He was shivering uncontrollably and talking out of his head when David and I got over there. He finally threw up and some went down into his lungs. David called for an ambulance and they took him to the hospital. He’s in ICU now and doing better. He’s confused as to how he got there, but at least he’s better than he was. We were all seriously scared he was about to die right then and there. He was as white as a sheet of paper.

Sunday David and I ate with his parents at O’Charley’s for lunch. We talked more wedding stuff with them. I think David is on an overload of information. I told him before that there are some things you have to decide right away, like a date and where to have the wedding since dates and places go fast.

David’s parents went to go see Pop in the hospital and David and I waited on my mom at their house. My mom, Ms. Deb, Emily and I went to David’s Bridal to look at dresses. I found THE dress, but couldn’t buy it yet. Plus the lady who was supposed to be helping us was a bitch who didn’t want to do any work. Emily did most of the work, like helping me get in the skirt and trying to help me into the bra. Apparently David’s Bridal doesn’t think fat girls need to get married since nothing really fit… except the right dress. That fit perfectly, even without the right bra on.

Emily and I went to meet David, Krista and Spencer at the Mexican restaurant. We wanted to tell Krista and Spencer in person, but they heard through the grapevine already. They were still happy for us. I asked Krista and Emily to both be my maids of honor and David asked John and Spencer to be his two best mans.

I’m still not used to this whole thing. I don’t feel engaged. Even having a wedding dress on didn’t make me really feel it. I’m hoping it hits me soon. I don’t want to waste this time with not feeling like anything has changed! This is the major change!

I do feel giddy at times, but I guess I figured it would feel different by now. Maybe it will just hit me and hit  me hard one day. Then I’ll be totally overwhelmed with excitement!

Current Mood: Happy

It’s my birthday too, yeah!

Today is my 25th birthday. I’m half way to being fifty. If I live to be 100, I’m a quarter of the way there. I blogged about that early this week, but I still don’t feel like it’s a big number to be at. Ask me ten years ago and my 15-year-old self would have said it was a big number and one I wasn’t sure what would hold for me.

Age 15

Like I blogged about Tuesday, I see this birthday as a milestone. I’ve come a long ways since I was 15. Sadly, I was already trying to end my life at age 15 after the trauma I went through. Obviously, God wanted to keep me around for at least another ten years. I’m really glad He did. Ten years has changed me a lot. Not only has my outward appearance changed, but my thoughts, my attitude, my spirituality, my beliefs, my morals, my outlook on life, my political views and my interaction with people have all grown and matured with me. I am not the same person I was at 15, that is for sure.

I was almost sad to see my 24th year of life come to an end. It was a really good year to me. So much happened in those 12 months to change my life forever. The most prominent change of course is David coming into my life and us falling in love. With David came his family, who I also love very much and they love me. All of the Coles and their extended family have meant so much to me and I look at them as family as well.

My brother was gone the majority of the time for my 24th year. I miss him a lot and I really hate that I can’t see him on a daily basis like I used to. This is the first time in 21 years that Matthew hasn’t been here for my birthday. He was supposed to come home for my birthday, but he couldn’t make it. Hopefully he’ll come home to visit soon.

So, how am I celebrating my birthday today?

Thus far I have woken up twice this morning. The first time was around 1:00 AM when Matthew called me to wish me a happy birthday. That was a nice thing, though the timing wasn’t great. Really, I don’t mind. It’s so rare to hear from my brother that I’ll take the phone calls when they come.

Age 25

I got ready this morning and dropped David off at his work. I went and grabbed some Chick-fil-a for breakfast and took David some back at his office. Then I left and started making my way towards McDonough. I had planned to just take the day off, but decided last minute that I’d come into work instead. I’d rather sit where there are people rather than sit at home alone. I’d just be online anyways.

My mom and I have lunch plans, just not sure what time. Emily may join us since she can’t make it to my party later tonight.

Kris organized a birthday party for me tonight at my favorite sushi place. Hopefully we won’t crowd the place out. So far there are 15 confirmed guests coming and the sushi restaurant is a small place. Luckily it’s never that crowded. We can fit 15 people in the corner area and we’ll be fine.

Saturday my parents are taking me to Outback. David is coming and I hope his parents can join us. If they can’t, then it’s ok. Dr. Frank treated me as well as David, John and Yoly to Thai food last night. I’ll take that as a birthday dinner. Mmm… I had crispy duck. So good!

I’ve had a lot of birthday wishes come in on Facebook, Twitter and text messages. My mom called and sang happy birthday to me. Thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday!

I thought it would be fun to do a survey about how things change in ten years. We can take a look at what ten years has done to Jill.

Ten Years Ago in February 1999:

1. How old were you?
15-years-old

2. Where did you go to school?
Henry County High. I was a sophmore.

3. Where did you work?
I didn’t.

4. Where did you live?
With my parents in McDonough, GA.

5. Where did you hang out?
Mostly at church or after school with the drama club.

6. Did you wear glasses?
I was supposed to, but I rarely did if I could get away with it.

7. Who were your best friends?
Tiffany Johnston, Stephanie Newman and some people from church. I hung out with Emily and Jonathan a little then too.

8. How many tattoos did you have?
Zero.

9. How many piercings did you have?
Two in my ears.

10. What car did you drive?
I didn’t. I only have my learners at that point. I guess I technically drove my mom’s van.

11. Had you been to a real party yet?
I suppose I have since I don’t know what a fake party is. All parties I’ve been to were real.

12. Had your heart broken?
Shattered is a better adjective to describe my heart at that point.

13. Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:
Single

Five Years ago in February 2004:

1. How old were you?
I was 20 years old.

2. Where did you go to school?
I was doing online schooling to learn to be a court reporter.

3. Where did you work?
I was a nanny.

4. Where did you live?
With my parents.

5. Where did you hang out?
With the college/singles group at church.

6. Did you wear glasses?
Yes.

7. Who were your best friends?
Emily, Jonathan, Amanda, Christina, Chrispy, Laura, Ben and Nik.

8. Who was your crush?
I think I had a crush on Ben.

9. How many tattoos did you have?
None.

10. How many piercings did you have?
Three my ears by then. I got the top of my ear pierced. I don’t even wear that one anymore.

11. What car did you drive?
My old Ford Explorer still. I got my PT Cruiser the next year.

12. Had you had your heart broken?
Yeah, it was still pretty broken from before.

13. Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:
Single

Today in February 2009:

1. How old are you?
25-years-old.

2. Where do you work?
For Georgia Parking Enforcement. I’m the secretary to the company and personal assitant to the president. We just became incorporated.

3. Where do you live?
Still with my parents. That hasn’t changed at all in ten years.

4. Do you wear glasses?
Yes. Just got two new pairs, even though I’m keeping my old ones.

5. Who are your best friends?
David, Emily, Krista, Laura, Jeremy, and Kris.

6. Do you talk to your old friends?
Sometimes. We’ve all just grown apart for different reasons.

7. How many piercings do you have?
Still just my ears…

8. How many tattoos?
None, though hopefully I’ll be getting one this month

9. Do you vote?
Yes, I do. Been voting since I was 18.

10. What are you goals for life?
Get engaged and married to David, have children, work hard, live my life for God and to be happy. Everything else is details.

11. What kind of car do you have?
My PT Cruiser.

12. Has your heart been broken?
It has been broken… a few times. But it’s healed now and full of love.

13. Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:
Taken.

Now, I’m going to just chill at work till lunch. Then I’ll go pick up David at work and head to my party!

This is yet another day at work when I have nothing to do. I listen to Neal Boortz, play games on Pogo.com, Twitter, chat with Emily, surf the internet, think about what I want for lunch and then blog. There really is nothing to do. I miss the days when at least I had Emily and could take an hour lunch or so. That passed the time quickly. On Wednesdays my mom and I go to eat lunch and that can take up some of my blank time, too.

Maybe I should start up some kind of hobby. I could bring in my yarn and make scarves while I sit here. I thought of bring in a book and reading, but I have to be in a very comfortable position in order to really get into a good book. This office chair doesn’t cut it.

I was trying to think of a good topic to blog on today. Seems that what I get the most comments on now is weddings. Well, I’m not going to blog about weddings, mainly because I want to save that topic for when I’m engaged and in the middle of planning the wedding. I suck at planning things though. The majority of the parties I’ve planned have gone wrong in some way or another, especially my birthday parties.

I’m beginning to just give up on planning anything. Every year I plan a birthday party for myself and every year the people I invite either say they can’t come or just don’t show up at all. Last year I sat alone in a restaurant and waited for people to show up. About 45 minutes after I said the party started the first person came in the door. It hurt to be sitting there and gradually wondering if people were even going to come… or at the very least call and say they’ll be there and not to worry. At least people showed up then. On my 16th no one came at all.

Maybe it sounds selfish, but I’d like for people to at least acknowledge that they like me at times. My whole life growing up I had one bad birthday party with friends after another. My friends were really good to me the year I turned 20. They gave me a surprise party and a dog. That was my best birthday. My follow up best birthday was last year when I went to Savannah with Krista and we stayed with Emily.

Anyways, this year I want to go to Cafe Intermezzo. Kris had her party there and I really liked it. The food, atmosphere, smell of the coffee and the Oreo Cheesecake were all so great! How could I not want to go back? Only thing is that it’s up in Atlanta and you have to pay for parking. It’s not bad, but a lot of people won’t like it. Of course if you carpool then you can split the $3 parking charge.

Maybe I’ll just have it at the sushi place I like. People can get sushi or Chinese. Whatever. I’ll go to Cafe Intermezzo on my own.

I wish I knew what I wanted for lunch. Everyone in the office has gone and I’m left here alone. I’m debating Chick-fil-a, but today is also the day my favorite little wing place has their $5.50 buffalo chicken sandwich lunch special.

If anyone has any suggestions for where to have my birthday party that no one will complain about being too expensive or too far away, let me know. Also, I’ll take blog topic suggestions.

Current Mood: Sad

Yesterday Emily told me about a website called MyFitnessPal.com. This is basically just like Weight Watchers, but free. As a former Weight Watchers member (I had to stop doing it because of the price tag) I really do appreciate something like this being available for free. I was hesitant to join Weight Watchers in the first place because I believe that losing weight (just like finding love) should be free. I know it’s a program and people have to make money. More power to them! But I’d rather take the free way instead of feeling like I’m paying to lose weight.

On the MyFitnessPal website you can keep track of your food with a food diary of sorts. You can input what food you ate and it tells you how many calories it has. Unlike Weight Watchers, you count calories and not points. After you put in your weight, height, age and how much you would like to lose, it gives you a number of calories you’re allowed per day. This is great for someone like me who has no idea how to count calories or why they even matter. I know they matter, it’s just trying to keep them in mind that sucks. Especially when I have a plate of yummy food in front of me.

Emily, Laura, Nik, Kris and myself signed up on the website yesterday. I really like knowing I have friends who are participating in this as well. It will help hold me accountable as well as them. Going through something together is better than alone.

Now I just need to get a treadmill or join Curves. I’m weighing (ha ha. pun) my options on what will help me more and which is not going to make my wallet lighter… just me.

I want to say just a couple of things about what happened at the inauguration yesterday. First, it wasn’t Obama that messed up his oath, it was Keith Ellison who fudged the wording of the oath. Obama did jump the gun at the beginning, but who wouldn’t mess up under that much pressure and being that nervous? I think that the transition of leadership went well. America was once again successful in showing the world one reason we are the most powerful country in the world.

But Rev. Joe Lowery is another thing. His race-based benediction wasn’t the end to a good inauguration. All he said was good and even funny until he got to his last line: “and when white will embrace what is right”. His racist comment was uncalled for on a day when we are supposed to be embracing “change” and moving forward. How does a jab at white people promote either one of those? As far as we have come since the civil rights movement, there is no place for comments like that. Especially in a benediction. But, it’s not like Rev. Lowery is known for his racial tolerance. Sadly, it should have been expected.

I seriously hope this is the last racist comment that is heard within close association with Obama. At least Obama himself never played the race card. Not once. It is not a card that needs to be played because it doesn’t matter. Did you see the smile fade off his face when Lowery made that comment? I sure did. He wasn’t pleased either.

And that is my say on that.

I can’t believe the comments on my last blog. It was mostly Nik and myself going back and forth about wedding stuff. Then my cousin Jessica and Kris came in too. You’d think we were talking about something important.

I really am grateful that people are willing to support and help me with a wedding (plans, ideas, dress, veil, food, venue, etc) when I’m not even engaged yet! It really made me feel good to know that people care enough to want to give advice and ideas and offer to help. Believe me, I’ll need anything you got! Any time I plan something, like my birthday parties, something goes wrong. Or people don’t show up. Like at my sweet 16. No came. No one even called to say they weren’t coming. It was horrible! Maybe that’s why I make a big deal about my birthday now. I want people to want to be around me. I just need to know that people don’t just tolerate me.

Speaking of birthdays, mine is just 15 days away. I guess I should start planning something now so that people can already plan on being there. If they want to be there. I’d like to go back to Cafe Intermezzo in Atlanta. We went for Kris’ birthday and I really, really liked it there. The atmosphere and the food were both amazing. Parking sucked, though.

So, I’ll take ideas on that too.

My boss had me running all over today. Return this to Best Buy, go find ink at Staples, go to the post office, get a money order. Now I can sit and do this blog before I go and get some lunch. Hoepfully after that I won’t have to go anywhere else but back home after work.